Date men from United States / California / La Quinta, 47 year old

Date a soulmate from United States. I want to walk hand in hand with you on a moonlit beach in the tropics.I want there to be no question concerning chemistry because both our eyes light up every time we see each other. I want to exhibit affection if the mood is right, and not worry about what others are thinking. I want that special feeling of waking up next to that special woman knowing that she knows that i truly love her, no matter how she thinks she looks. I want to be there when your in pain and need an extra shoulder to cry on. I want it get better throughout the years making love to you and pleasure you in your every fantasy
I need destiny, not fate.
I have searched for my soul mate but havent her so far. I prefer a relationship that has a direction, as to just having fun. I like having a companion. i prefera person that is: trustworthy, loyal, truthful, dependable, honest, funny or sense of humor, and hopefully good looking.
I am very funny, my students think Im doing standup and would say Im the funniest or weirdest teacher they have ever had. I definitly spark emotion w people either good or bad. yes I am controversial at times. I am a former college and semi-pro catcher and thats why i chose my backstop as my most commented item. I love children and could fall iin love w a mother as easily as a single woman.
I am complex and weird, but very cute and never boring. Yes, I am kinda a control freak but I gave up jealousy along time ago. Its been 6 months after the big D but Im ready to try. I also realize that every woman is different, unique, and special. What makes one a goose may illuminate another to be a swan. are you my swan. I also smoke occasionally and am up front about it - not much but i do so if it's a huge deal dont email me back. I would love to chat with you further concering our similar interests before we plan on getting together.