Date women from United States / Alabama / Satsuma, 45 year old

Date someone special from Satsuma, United States. Outgoing personality. But can be a home body at times. Love my family and my children are the most important thing in my life. They are all grown and have their own families now. I am athletic but not to any extreme. I am a huge animal lover.
One of the things that makes me smile is seeing kindness is someone even when no one is watching.

Meet a woman from Satsuma, United States. I am a very recent widow from a very rough marriage. He died from cancer. That said, I would like to meet someone who needs me but is not needy.
I love horses and plan to purchase and work with them. I love poetry and write it often. I love people but I love my distance from them also.
I am looking for someone who likes what I like, will include me in their life and teach me new things.
My 20 year old body was very nice. Unfortunately, I left it somewhere and this fat one took it's place. I am free now to work out and take care of myself. I always put myself last. My health, what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go or live. Now, I am joining the YMCA to work out, fixing up my home, looking at horses to buy and doing what I want for once. I also intend to look into investing in real estate and doing some more volunteering at church.
I have a daughter and a son, both in their teens. She's into horses too and my son really wants a motorbike or ATV. I love my kids. They have kept me sane and they are a major reason for my joy.
God is the reason I've never given up. His love for me is all I really need. When I think of all he's done and all my faults, I am broken in my soul.
I am NOT the preachers wife type. I have been trying to get my mouth under control, lol. I need a good, godly man to help me there. Just kiss me before I say something stupid! LOL!
I need someone who will love my kids even when they act like snotty teens. Really, they are good kids! My son is a very kind, loving kid and will empty his wallet, give away things he would rather keep and help people in the grocery store. Today, he tipped a waitress $30 for a $17 meal! He loved her and felt like she needed the money as she was working her way through nursing school.
My daughter is tough, a touch whiney, and always has a new boyfriend. She defends the weak and thinks she is always right. She is always looking for a true relationship with God and wants straight answers.
Random thought...ok, I am adopted. I am thankful that God chose this way to move me around in life and care for me. I met both biological parents before they died. I always wanted to adopt a child and may still do so. My adoptive mom passed away a few years ago and my dad is still alive. I love my dad a lot. I have 3 adoptive brothers and 6 biological brothers and 3 biological sisters. I am the youngest of all of them.
I have a love of Ireland, New Zealand and Scotland and a desire to go visit the places Jesus walked.
I love to cook but would rather have someone else clean up. I love a clean house but I am a bit lazy. What really makes me mad is when I clean up and then people just throw stuff, including food just wherever and they don't help me with chores. That is usually my biggest pet peeve. I'm not picky about my house cleaning but I don't like doing it all myself either. I also want things clean for company.
My late husband and I fought over 3 things. How to raise the kids, Money and whatever I did or didn't do that day to fit into his life???!!! Oh, yeah, he had some bad points too, lol! We aren't going there, though, this is about me and you! LOL!
Ok, enough said. Would love to meet someone to be a friend, helper and lover one day. You know, after a wedding, lol! Hopefully, we'll enjoy each others company and the things we love to do.
My photo is blurry and kinda old. I just don't have a digital camera that works! It is true to what I look like, though. I'm the one on the right. That is my adoptive mom and late husband. The baby is my daughter who is now 15. I still look pretty much the same. A bit bigger but as I said, I am working on that and the weight is coming off. I need a man who can help me with losing this weight and not be embarrassed by me. I love Who I am, just hate my size. It is very limiting and not fun to look at. So, I hope you have a positive attitude and can be my very best friend and helper and I'll help you in any way you need!