Date men and women from United States / Colorado / Estes Park, 53 year old

Date people from Colorado, United States. Im an optimistic person, empathetic to others happiness and struggles. Understanding that if I could I would snap my fingers and all would be well with the world but that you cannot help EVERYONE and that there are those who refuse to be helped. Ill just make the best decisions I can on the daily and at the end when its time to look back at my resume of life that I have a reasonable balance of success' and regrets.
The last ten years or so have been an emotional struggle. Lost my wife of 24 years to cancer about 7 years ago. My father was diagnosed stage four cancer 4 years ago and its about to the point of all I can physically do for him.
So, 12 years of dealing with cancer, loosing my wife and best friend, three years kind of just grabbing a knee, grieving and sitting on the bench of life and then being unexpectedly called off the bench again and now time to stand up brush myself off and take a look and make a plan from here. And that would be the biggest boulders in my backpack. I am so effing tired of my own story, please tell me about yourself.
Of course I would LOVE to find someone incredibly attractive and wildly funny. Someone with a big personality to balance out my calm.

Meet someone special from Colorado, United States. I have been a professional musician for many years working around the country and in Austin, Texas for many years. In the last few years my focus has changed somewhat. I am an avid outdoorsman, horseman and fishing guide. I am a county boy at heart. I am fatihfull and have friends that go back to childhood. I am very independant and self sufficient. My home is very clean. I iron my clothes. I am ambitious and driven yet I play hard, too. I'm looking for a great lady to spend time with. A friend that is loving and hopefully a partner in life. Someone that can let me be a man. But a lady whom I can treat as a cherished woman. I will open the doors for you and yet want you to be tough and able to hang in there with me in the outdoors. Your family is very important as mine is. I don't want a doormat or to be one. Equality is important to me. Someone not affraid to share good times and bad. Kindness to one another is easy when there is love, respect and one's heart is right.